i am stuck onto my assignment 2. i can't even get it started cos i have no business idea. i dun even know what business to write about. damn!

SCREWED UP..!

i just completed my assignment 1 and uploaded it.

just completed my lab 2 of customer relationship.

still struggling for my first virgin talk tomorrow to strangers. not yet prepared.

and i am so LOST..

HELP!

i am struggling printing my tutorial and lecture notes now. not all but the topics that would be going through since week 1 till tmr week 3. and damn. now then i start printing. for all subjects. and i realize that is so much.

and i need to purchase my textbooks if not i would faint trying to scheme through those notes of the lecture.

so tmr. i need to borrow some strangers lecture and tutorial notes that i miss for the 2 weeks. so i am going to be so thick skin la.

and i still have problem uploading my assignment 1 entrepreneurship work. and now i have another one needed to be upload.

and i still have many undones tasks like i postphone my next week talk to 11 nov instead. so i need to get ready my ppt slides. and then my final major project advertising materials.

argh. time is not enough. pls. i don;t want to skip my beauty sleep again.

and i haven gone through my crm lab that is on tuesday.

and i still have my crm project 1 assignment as well. argh.

see how terrible life is esp when you are taking business subjects that is not focusing on one main and diverting all instead. damn!

i need a break. and my long lost friends from canada ring me up just. the purple dino BARNEY. that make me better for the day. haha. =)

ok i need to rush some work. bye

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

and asking how i am to spend this year halloween night.

well. spent at home packing my bed, table to welcome my beloved PAPA.

so i spend the day no.. afternoon since i woke up ard 2pm. cleaning packing. then off for some cooking to welcome him home. so i cancel all my dates tonight with all my friends. but no choice!

nothing is more important than PAPA. ok.

so actually i decided to go off to phuture or St james for party with my friends like weeks ago. cos they invited. but push it off. and i even decided what to dress as this year. but it got push off. so too bad.

anyway. received a damn call my Ms wong. and it is a bad news. she wants me to give a talk. i thought to my course yr 2 students maybe like 40-50 students in a lecture hall but now she wants me to give 2 talks. one to my course juniors. another one to the whole yr 2 students that is going to yr 3. damn!. and i need a while to get ready all the materials. i need to spend 15 mins infrontt like make a fool of myself. oh no. help. !

plus i have my advertising projects that is dueing on 10 days or so. so damn!. i need to hurry.

ok. i need to switch on my power and keep running now. bye.

nights. papa is finally home. so add on to a new bottle of collection! =) i think i am a lil stress up again. i need a lil break before i go crazy

so no school today. and i spend my day wasting myself. being a slacker. that the no.1 thing i am always top at. anyway it is still a bad day. i have the intention for some swim, jog, gym.. yet everyone is busy.

like working, study in the day and couple time at the night. so i tried like calling some ppl whom i think they might not have schools but still bfs and gfs time. argh.. see that the problem of having a partner. and why i resent having one so much. =) that prob a kind of excuse i give to myself.

and today buddy called me. and we were kind of gossiping on the phone. he is busy with him projects dueing soon so he was a little unable to fork out time for his lil buddy me.. and so he called me up. just to gossip about the date.. argh. i hate him!! laughing at me.

and suddenly. i am like damn tired.

not physically. but emotionally. and internally.

why?

studies, confusing bgr, the expectations i have in myself for everything.

maybe i need a break soon. i need to slow down. and calm down.

relax. if if if. i have the chance to see the thing i want again. what would happen. ?

maybe maybe.

nights

i am so tired. i haven got a wink of sleep at all. i was rushing my assignment for technopreneurship till 4am and i told myself not to sleep cos i need to wake up at 6am.

and so. i went to school early and mr loh was like late again. so lesson was pretty boring. he say sth that is not needed to say at all. so i went to meet ms chan. and hurray..

she changed my timetable. so now mon i have a heavy day and wed thur no school. in fact looking at it. it is like fri no school as well cos CCOM tut is not needed weekly. and so after that i went to the lib intending to get a short nap before customer relationship lab which will last for 3 hrs. and i was reading my book there and listening to music. so like i doze off for like 10-15 mins and when i woke up at 1130. and move a little.

a piece of paper drop on the floor. i pick it up. and i realize that paper was from the case study of the entrepreneurship subject. and i turn it behind. there a short message saying like. :

heys. i go 1st! see you later. don't be late for class bye with a smile. from XXX.

so i got like damn surprised. and was wondering damn. my image gone. a note given while i was SLEEPING. how cute the guy give it to me. ok. thanks still.

and crm lab was boring. i went in like 1145am. and class starts at 12pm. so wad majority of the class came n at 1230 instead. and lecturer got so piss off cos while he is showing some things some bitches and bastards were gossiping behind loudly. so he gave up and told us to do lab. and woooo. so easy. i finish in like 10 mins and could go off but since i am a nice girl. quite untrue. haha.

i stayed back for 30 mins helping my lecturer with the remaining class on the lab on excel. and haha. till lec got to chase me out saying ok. hannah u may go home. no more helping. and yeah. i went home. hardworking ya. !

and damn. i have been cutting budget alot since i return. actually not cutting down on purpose. but i seldom out now so i spend lesser. like last week. i spend less than 10 bucks for entire week. ask me how i do it. i shall say. don't eat out. and bring water bottle. get breakfast and eat home. stay healthly. haha. basically now since i return. i don't eat out. i hate eating outside unless once in a while. u can call me a weirdo cos i feel i am. haha. and i have been eating alot as well. but why people sees me now.. still says oh man. so skinny after u return. eat more. it is so terrible i am like freak out by the resonse.

anyway. i spend 200 bucks yesterday in just buying 2 levis jeans. and it is after a 100 rebate. if i din have the 100 bucks rebate. i guess i need to spend 300 plus. so i feel so pain after spending. and the worst is. i dun wear jeans. so why do i buy them. so booo. wasting of $$. and when i get back i realize i still have 3 jeans with price tags and label tags on still not wore after i bought. and i start feeling. shit. i wasted $$ defintely. i totally forgotten about my tommy jeans, mango jeans and i think zara or forgotten what brand. and so i need to force myself to wear them and match it with my red sneakers with my cap.

so i am way off budget this month and week. so no more extra spending. and damn. i still haven redo my password for atm card.

so this week over. no more school till next week. but still many assignments to be done this week. dateline. next week.

and ya. i nearly forgotten about my lunch date. yes. it was awesome cos the food by XX were like fab. and i love the salmon he done for me. damn. i can't even cook salmon. so see how impressive guys can cook. really hot guy cook fab man! so i gave the food 100/100. and the atmosphere like quite low. cos ended up the others all din turn up. and thankfully we could finish the food. it was like weird. cos really i din know XX like damn well. it is like i met him yst for like 3 times only and this date was orgnanize by those so call good friends. so we did try to chat but i realize. he is hot cos he can cook. but just NOT MY TYPE. cos no chemistry in between us still. of cos he doesn;t know my blog if not i would not be posting all out. haha. but still i love the food. he did. and i found a new buddy and could click quite well cos of we LOVE food. haha.

ok. i m heading off to bed. bye.
i am missing everyone. cos last week i met no friends at all beside colleagues. i din meet tingy, my co., my lil bro. and all. so when i am off with my load

hannah shall be back. so lets wait. mp judging is starting in like a few weeks so i need to present it well to score a distinction and get a slot for EPS. which would help alot in uni admisson. please.! =)

i am super tired. waiting for lunch to be serve in like another 30 mins.

eventually Sunday i skipped lecture and Ms Chan called and ask me to meet her and there is a miracle to happen. like 70% she is willing to change my timetable and make it thursday no school.

and weekends was left for working. it is seriously so tired to work. though it was back to old job but i guess i had been slacking for long thats why i feel the discomfort. anyway. my weekends were pretty simple cos i work only.

and i am groaning about why holiday is shifted from tue to mon. i so much hate it. cos tue i had 8am class and a assignment to hand in and not yet done. damn!

chatted on the phone like on Friday with adrian till late. and we were laughing non stop. and i wonder why both of us had like endless of topics to discuss about. though he might be mean and sux at times like what i tell him. but at least he knew what i was thinking about when we were talking about some things.

and my fav gal sarah woo sms me on sat late night scaring me. and suddenly we remember the past we had a year ago. the time she stood beside me when i fell off with my friends when ky and me had problems. and when we club in the beginning. the camp days. the late night at sengkang MOS. hahas. all were bringing back my memories.

and so today i miss my sentosa trip with tingy due to a date. jus because i knew something would not be right. i asked some ppl to tag along with me for the lunch date with new friend. and guess what. just because i am so lazy to get to town and squeeze in bus or mrts or stuck in the car for JAMs. he said why not had lunch home. and he is busy in the kitchen while i am trying to feel wasted again. haha. anyway. it is just a LUNCH date to all the so called good friends to me that got me into this lurch. and say bye bye.

ok. lunch bye. i need to rush my assignment and present tomorrow to class with a 10/10 grade. ok.

yes, and it is still screwing up! the first week of school has been a bad week for me.

it is not i hate school it is just gum pain, the screwed up timetable in those screwed up classes. so i need a time to get use to it. i don't know when. yet i am praying soon. so instead of being grumpy.. i guess i need to force a fake smile.

but since going back to school this week. i have been thinking so much about why did i study in this course. again. i have the intentions of giving up like the past. and jump to sth that interest me. and i know it is impossible. so i start to have this thinking. 1 more sem. and i can proceed to uni. so just for uni i am forcing myself to stay in TP just for my UNI.. is a little of forcing yet no choice.. if i give up now.. i know mom killing me for sure. and i need to spend some time to get a dip before uni again.

being a student is tough now.

so today i wasted my time AGAIN.. class starts at 1pm.. and tutorial 3 hrs starts at 2.. so i go for my lec like finally.. and the bloody lec tell me tut cancelled and i go home after 40 mins of idiots sayings at lec.. i shd not go school la..

WASTED.

and now i am thinking tmr shd i go for my god pa lecture at 10am. cos after that no class. i think i shd really take a driving lic cos it save more time. if not i shall swim or buddy and me shall skip school just to go for a tan at sentosa.

i am going crazy with school life. is so hard to concentrate. i hope i get better tutorial mates please god. if not how can i score. i rather have exam then projects..

no school today yet i wasn't feeling that happy anyway. cos my gum still hurts and it is still swelling and i can't even close my mouth completely. and i am so fcuking piss off with it.

so i decided to get up early and go for a swim with buddy but it rain. why does it always has to be raining when i want to go outdoor. and i slept till 1pm.

and Ms chan called me up and chatted with me regarding school matters. I am going to so shift my timetable of thursday to Monday. so i can get 2 days off. stop asking why.

and I am really so bad temper since Monday. i guess must be the gum thingy and school related matters.. so today i feel so wasted again. normally i will say wasted to myself only when i get drunk or does stupid thing. but this time i did nth and yet i feel wasted. oh man hannah what the hell do you want?

i did nothing today. beside eating, psp, tv. and my technopreneurship report gone cos i did no research. i am so damn eager to complete it today though i got it yesterday. i seen 2/4 of my scheme of work for subjects and they really sux. all about reports and reports. thats what i hate about studying business. oh man. i know it is too late. but i seriously need to hurry myself. i gues i am really not use to being back in school. a sem of taking an elective. then a sem just for attachment and now a sem of 4 subjects. thats why i need alot of subjects in a day to get me working myself up. argh... rather than the screwed up timetable.

and where my buddy? he vanish from the world today within an hour. see the prob when i need to vent my anger and fustrations on someone or do sth. it always can't let me do it. so how can i be relax.

RELAX..!!

fcuk it

So the school finally reopen on Monday. and i seriously don't look forward to it.

I was late for Monday class already cos it was raining quite badly anyway attendance is not considered for first week. so i have no worries. and i met up with drin, karmen, davis for break. and i went home after school. so nothing special.

and tuesday. i woke up at like 6am. just because my class is at 8am. and i went in for technopreneurship late like 810 and the damn class was locked so i thought i went into the wrong block and at 815 my lecturer came and he was late and by 830am. there was only 2 person that came for the class. and so he wasted the time saying shitty things. and 2 hours of break was at lib playing PSP and enjoying aircon.. then 3 hours of lab for customer relationship management. and i freaky hate this timetable. cos all my lessons i had all different class with those friends i had in the same course. and so the class for this sub was even worst. terrible girls. headache. so i manage to form my project grp within 27 strangers. and i had reports to do this week due next week.

oh man!.. thats bad. is just the first week of school and homeworks coming right up.

so lab ended for 1 hr cos we can't logged in to the com.. and i went to tpy to meet my mom for lunch. and i was so tired.

seriously. techno class was still ok. not that bad. but crm class was not fun.. and now thur service quality management class. and headache again.

why is my timetable so screwed up.
*point middle finger*

and i seriously have a bad mood since yesterday. and mom was mentioning something i dislike even more. damn!

so i need a break.! argh... anyway

hannah you are going to surivie in this semester despite strangers in all the subjects. but yet it prompt me to study instead of talking in class.

hopefully.

now i am struggling what to wear for school tomorrow.

not too casual like what i wear to the beach. my mom always nag me for wearing so sloppy for school
not too formal. cos is school only.
and i can have my shoe, bag match with it..

now i am thinking hard hard hard.. if i dun think now. i need to wake up super early cos i take am million years to get ready.

and damn..

maybe i am skipping school.. hahaha wahaha